The reason why I named this post "Blank Page" is well, I like those words. I don't know why, but they have a real.. deep meaning to them. It's almost as if it's abstract. There was this one place, on the computer, where if I opened a new browser or something it would come up as 'blank page' and when I saw that for the first time.. I was like: wow. That would be something to name my blog. So, although I haven't changed A Night Owl Hoots in favour of Blank Page because I still like what I have. However, if I ever made a new one, I think I would call it that.
Blank Page. What do you think of when you read those two words? I think of a new start, a brighter future; as if anything is possible. A blank page. So yes, I get all sentimental when I see that. It fills me with hope. Ah *sigh* it's great. lol So this might have been a boring post; I am not going to apologize. Be thankful you got one at all =P jk. Sorry if it was boring, and somewhat short. I guess... hmm.. well, there's just a lot of stuff on my mind so I suppoe if I told you about that it still might be boring but at least it would be longer! lol
To make what I would normally say in a huge, confusing paragraph I'm going to like, have separate paragraphs for different days.
1. Wednesday: my uncle is staying with my family at our house until friday. School-earlier than I've been getting up (which is late) because my mom is all about maintaining public (my uncle's) opinion. Going to the library so the librarian can go over my Letter for this one contest. Have people over at my house because of my uncle. Also, this is when a cousin of mine comes in. My family likes to get together with him and his family. We usually have pizza and play cards.
*Sometime this day I'll have to make up my GS homework (make a dancing page)
** Finish my GS Christmas gift which still has about 10-30 minutes left of work on it.
***And also study for the ACT which is going to be on Saturday (soo earlly). But, according to the practice tests i've taken, will only be a 23. That is 2 less than I got the first time I took it.
2. Thursday: my uncle is still here. After school, I go to GS and maybe ring the bell for money. Then we'll probably have my other cousin over to play cards with and such.
** (I don't know if this is clear enough, so I am going to make it. It's taking the other two "**" and putting them here. so whenever you see "**" just think of "Finish my GS Christmas gift which still has about 10-30 minutes left of work on it." same goes for ***, except about the ACT...)
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3. Friday: School. My uncle leaves. Maybe go to this library thing that I said I would help with, but might probably go to my gma's for a birthday party. Hang out there.
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4. Saturday: ACT (=( ) church where I am singing at, getting ready for GS christmas party. Probably having family over to play cards and such.
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5. Sunday: Get ready for the GS party. Go the the GS Christmas Party. If it is not too late, have people over again to play cards and such.
6. Monday: School-back to regular subjects since I've been studying for the ACT the past week. Grandma's and get ready for my other cousin (different side) who is going to be living with us for as long as he can as he goes to college (this is his second time trying to go to school here- maybe this time it will stick. I can only pray.).
7. Tuesday: School. and my cousin comes. and that will be the end of my list. However.. during well, the whole time.. I'll also be trying to do (but I probably won't accomplish):
- I want to start on this other scholarship thingy or more than one, actually
- I want to get my license even though I don't go around telling people that. I know that it is time for me to do so. I just don't like driving when other people are in the car- or at least people who will make a big deal out of it or fun of me. And, if I could, I would do that on my own- but I can't. I need a 21 year old or older and that doesn't leave many options, especially if I don't want a big deal.
- I need/want (idk which one) a job. I don't really know how to go about getting about myself.. since I'm too timid and I'll think it'll change their opinion about me or something. Like, "Wow, you're looking for a job and you're 17? You should have gotten one before!" and, "Too bad! We don't want to give you it." Probably not exactly like that, I don't really know what goes on in my head. But I need one because...college won't pay for itself, I know my mom is kind of worried about having mine and my younger sister still need paying for... But I don't really want a job. A job will ruin what little of a routine I have and take away my free time (which is a lot, I know.. but still!). Plus, I'll be so nervous. Like, I think I'm a nice person and I can talk to people, but that's only with people I know. Usually I freeze up and then I don't talk to anyone- which makes me embarrassed and that's no fun. If I'm quiet, people won't get to know me and if people don't get to know me, they won't know me and I'm awesome =P. haha, okay that was kind of.. idk.. building myself up?
- I also want to finish my novel (that is actually why I'm still blogging- I'm procrastinating), but I don't much like it at the moment. Like, I want to just start it at this other (further along point) and write from there.. but i need to get the story from point A to point B. blah.
- Furthermore, I still LOVE talking to my friends on the computer, although.. maybe I should stop getting on where I can talk to people. Because, although I love them and everything, I don't like leaving when I'm talking to them if I don't have a good enough reason to. I've used "I've been on too long, so I'm going to go." but I don't like that one as much as having a legit reason. Which is why it's almost better for me not to get on. I dislike saying "I'm going to do something else." Probably because to me, it sounds like "You're not interesting enough to stay on for..." and I really dislike that.